BRYNLEES FIVE YEAR OLD TENDER HEART

If you have a five year old you know how smart and perceptive they really are. I think sometimes we forget this. I have really been striving to not get upset at Ken at all when he cancels and doesn't get the kids or doesn't pay me etc. Anyway I am making progress and I have to say it feels so good to just let it go and have it be his problem instead of me being upset about it and having it affect my day or week. Brynlee being the perceptive 5 year old that she is has noticed this. She said to me the other day, "mom you and dad aren't fighting anymore." I said, "your right Bryns and I don't think that we will be fighting anymore at all." So on friday when I went to drop off the kids Brynlee said, "so mom now that you and daddy aren't fighting is he going to move in with us." I said no and she burst into tears and she just sobbed. Imagine the heartache I feel as a mother. You want to give your children the world and you want them to especially have a strong eternal family unit. It breaks my heart that I have no control over this situation. Unfortunately and fortunately Heavenly Father has given us free agency and we are only free to decide for ourselves not others what we are committed to and what is most important to us. I just hope one day my children will be able to see that my family, my covenants that I have made, and the gospel are the things that are the most important to me.

The other day Bryns bite Stocky. Then on friday Stocky was going to bite Brynlee and I got upset at them and had the we don't bite talk. As a sidenote Bryns prays every night that her and Stockton won't bite. So after the talk Bryns burst into tears and she said, "mom Heavenly Father doesn't love me because I pray every night that we won't bite and both me and Stocky bite each other." I went on to explain that Heavenly Father won't do all of the work for us we have to make good choices and be accountable for the decisions we make. I think this is really good to remember for all of us. We can always go to a loving Heavenly Father and ask for what we stand in need of. But we as his children must be willing to do what is right and what he has asked of us. And we must be accountible for our own actions.

So I am going to try to take Elder Eyrings challenge and write about how we see the Lords blessing us in our lives. So here is how Heavenly Father blessed me today...I was very proud of Brynlee today because normally Ken brings me the kids in the morning on the sundays that he has them so that they can go to church with me. He decided to keep them today so that they could go to a birthday dinner for his sister. Anyway Brynlee told him she would not miss church and that he had to bring her home because on Sundays we go to church. I am thankful for a sweet, obedient 5 year old daughter who is already choosing the right. I love you Brynlee! I see the Lord blessing me every day because he has given me you as a daughter.